i wish i could just vanish

great headache lead to 11 panadol tablets.
it sounds crazy but I can 't help it.the headache is killing me.
so is the heartache.I don't know who to turn to.
those tablets make me sick.that was my intention.
to be sick so mum would stay at home.
but she still left.knowing im sick.
leaving me some money.money wont replace it mum.
I'm now all alone.
in this stupid house.
how i wish i could just run away.
I need my sister but she needs to work.
now who should i turn to?
i wonder,what went wrong?
why must you lie to me?
to us?
don't you know how i feel.
i never complain about being left alone always.
errghh!make all this misery stop.
please!
i need to clear my mind.
i hate mum.
thats it.