you're more than in my head

You know I never mean anything I say.
I never hated you.How could I hate you when you're the only one that really knows me?
Where's my old sister?Give her back to me.
I want my sister.I don't care what she does or who she dates,I just need her.
I need her when I'm down with life or when I'm just me.

Whenever I'm with you,I can be myself.
I can be upset when I'm upset and don't have to pretend that everything's all right.
You always know when I'm facing problems.
You know all my darkest secrets and so do I know yours.
Secrets that are meant to be seal.
Where are you sis?
Why are you doing this?
You always said that you'll always be there for me.

Do you remember all those past years?
When our family was tearing apart and we only had each other to depend on?
Do you remember how we always cry when everything goes wrong?
Do you remember the time when we always hang till late night sitting under void deck playing stupid card games?
Do you remember how I always give you and your friends stupid jokes but still,you guys laugh at it?
Do you remember how I irritating I get when I want to see Jeffrey when we're at Orchard?
Do you remember how I got wasted on christmas eve and how you got wasted on new year's eve?
Do you remember when I always tell you about how I like this guy and you keep banter me about it?
Do you remember how you always nag at me for smoking too much?
Do you remember how I threaten you that I'll quit school when you were tired of your life and just want to end it?
Do you remember me sis?
DO YOU?

I hate this game.
I hate all this.
I just want things to be back to normal.
I don't have anyone if this family crumble.
I only have YOU.
I need you..