sempiternal truth

I felt cold.Not just any cold,a fear cold.A fear I cannot resist nor escape.Every time I try to stop myself,the demons would not let me.I am too afraid to fight them.Maybe I am not strong enough too.I tell her but she keeps saying back the same words to me.I see fear in her eyes too.I don't want to be caught off guard.I don't want to be safe.I am stuck inside this but I wouldn't get out even if I want to.This may be a arcanum of mine but they know.I want to stop my callow words but it keeps me going more and more every time I have the thought of it.What is this?Why am I like this?I can't find an answer and neither can you.I have done a temerarious mistake and now,not even an apology can be accepted.Is it me or are you with me now?Making ineffectual attempts to save myself but can I?I am a human.Human beings are fallible.We cannot stop the demons inside our body and we can't stop ourselves.Like you said,I am a malicious girl but thats not a reason to condemn me aside.See,I am still not over it.I need to get over myself because its over.
It really is.


Je suis désolé,ce n'est pas moi