1 october

These past few days has been hectic.I keep on shifting the furniture in my room but I seem to be not satisfied.I wanted to assemble the antique bed but I had no one to help me.Yesterday,my parents and I went for hari raya clothes shopping and grocery shopping.I pick 2 simple outfits.Simple enough to go to a wedding or any Malay function.I only manage to sleep at 1pm just now and eye bags are visible now.And a pimple too.

My family went to the grave last Sunday.Everytime I go there,I feel down.Like how lucky some of you to feel the love of your grandfathers and I don't even remember it.My grandfather passed away when I was two so I don't remember the relationship we had.Diyana's uncles passed away on Sunday morning and it was a shocker.I just called her just now and glad that she's fine.
Diyana msged me some things and yes,it does make me realise something.Since Diyana's grandfather's death,she find it hard to move on and because of that,she taught me a lesson.
I've learnt to appreciate my grandmother more than usual.I got to admit,I think I use to be a spoil brat and my grandma's always favour my sister more.But now that I've grown up,I realise she treat us all the same.Shower us with all her love and concern.Diyana,thank you.You taught me to appreciate my parents and my grandma more.I hope you and your family are coping well now.I am sure your Grandpa and Uncle are watching over you guys.

I am listening to the radio,just feel like it.This hari raya song is being played while I am posting this and I can't help it but let these tears roll down.Sigh.I guess hari raya is a really good day for me to ask for forgiveness.From my parents,my grandma and my sister.I've never asked for forgiveness from her and I know I have been a bad sister.Bitching about her,hating her but still..She is still my sister and I know she loves me.So later,I hope I'll have the courage.
I'm nervous now.I tend to cry even before I could speak.Yes,I am a crybaby.haha.Now you know.

So,I guess the house is ready,my clothes are ready,my shoes are high.haha.Thanks Amira for accompanying me.Wedges.Bleargh.I hope I don't trip.

Can I just wear my sneakers?Seriously....haha

Selamat hari raya,maaf zahir dan batin.

I would like to apologise to everyone whose hurt from what I said to them in person or maybe here.I tend to say things I don't mean and be really catty.Maafkanlah aku,insan yang tak termaya ini.
HEHEHE.