its like suicide once again

I went out with Ash and Sarer on Saturday.It was good.I'm glad I went out with you guys again.Haha.Next month perhaps?Just hope no weird weathers and muddy fields please.

I dread Sundays.Its either I'm alone or just with my cats.My cats are not even at home.Well,actually my Dad came back for a while just now with slaughter goats bones.I was helping him unloading them to the freezer because he wanted to give some to the other families.While I was unloading the 'things',I saw this long thing so I asked him what was it.And he told me with such calm voice.. "oh thats the tongue." I went to the toilet and just threw up.How could he brought a tongue back?!haha.My Dad is so weird.He actually invited me for late lunch at his usual favourite spot but I don't know why I decline it.I guess the thought of me and him,just the two of us having lunch makes me feels uncomfortable.I think the years he spent overseas drift us apart and I didn't even try to make it work.Haha.

I'm hearing the takbir now.This is weird.Me,alone on this day.This house feels like a desolate place sometimes.My sister is such a procrastinator.
I think I should stop now and just feel the energy around me.
I predict tomorrow is going to be dreary than usual.