Have you ever felt like your life is changing so fast and you don't realise it?
Have you ever felt like the people closest to you feels so far away from you?
Have you ever feel like something's missing?
Have you ever felt bete noire?
Have you?


I know I have or I won't be writing all this down.
My life is stagnant.I feel so robot-ific right now.
I'm doing the same thing all over again everyday.
Its getting sick and I'm getting sick of it.
I feel like day by day,I'm getting older and families are straying away from you.
I'm so near to them and I sometimes feel like I'm living in a strangers house.
Sometimes,I feel so outcast.
I don't know why.
Blame on my selfishness of not speaking up.
But ponder,if I speak up,do they even understand what I'm trying emphasize?
Maybe its my own insecurities due to un-communications towards each other



And for friends,it feels so incomplete without Diyana and Izyan.
I really miss them that I can cry anytime.
I miss how stupid we can be by doing stuff we know thats lame
How noisy our laughter can get that it annoys other people around us
I hate it when friends and friends stop talking to each other due to each other self-centered ness and restiveness.
I really do.
Because,what we have now,no one can tear us apart.
We've gone through so much that sometimes,being apart seems so hard.
You always try to be there for me even you have your own personal problems.
You guys are my clowns.
Turning my frown upside down.
I wish we can be like how we use to be.
How late night conference become our drug and staying up till dawn was our medicine to cheer up.
Don't let the slightest things that happen will affect ourselves because trust me.
Its not worth it.
Don't sink the ship we've sailing all these years cause losing 1 friend that I thought I could count on was hard enough to handle.Losing another one would be a big blow for me.