it engulfs in me

I've been wasting days watching old and new movies.Role models rule! I just finished watching a Malay movie.Couldn't find any Farid Kamil but Pierre Andre and Syed Hussein were on Sepi.A good substitute I guess.I cried like a baby watching the movie.Like being left alone or ditched.
I can't wait for more movies like this.Some lessons to learn from it at least.Appreciate,cherish,love.

Did I ever told you I love Anuar Zain?haha.Stop laughing at me.I don't fucking care about your opinions.This guy,okay MAN,has the greatest voice ever.If I get to meet him,I'll write him a poem that he'll cry and straightaway propose to me.I don't care if he's old enough to be my Uncle.Johnny Depp is old enough to be my dad but I'd still screw him.Hahaha.All these Malaysian stars are making me having the urge to migrate there.haha.Life would be great,just like when I was 9.Private school,rich friends,big house,cars,shopping.Okay,a year was not enough because I never understand the meaning of life yet when I was 9,not like I'd still understand life since I'm already 17.

Thanks,I'm not 18 and I can't see The Teenagers.Go o,enjoy it,laugh at me,mock at me.At least I'm still young and even if I'm jobless,my parents won't complain.NOT LIKE YOU!YOU MANIPULATING SELF-CENTERED WHORE! Okay,its me time now.

Speaking of job,I really need one.Anyone who happens to pass by this old 'shack' and coincidentally has a job vacancy for me,TELL ME.I'M DESPERATE LIKE A GUY NEEDS HIS PORN MOMENTS.I am serious.

Something to share,wait..I have alot to say today.Yeah I got alot to say...OKAY.Apparently,my nephew receive some awards yesterday and I only know yesterday night.My nephew was top 10 in his class,got the title for Best Speller and also,the top Malay student in Primary 1.I am proud of him.He's only 7 and he have make the family proud.I'm 17 and I've done nothing but trouble.Haha.DISOWN ME DAD!MUM! Heh heh.Like you would do that.I know you two love me too much to even leave me.Since I'm like the only daughter anyway.I guess you and that old hag has the same attitude.Staying over at friend's place and forgetting your family.Runs in the blood huh Sis?I didn't say it.Someone else did.

My grandma is always making me eating panadols,not that she force me to eat them but I had to because she always give me a headache with her question.haha.I hope she'll get use staying here so she won't keep asking me the same questions over and over again.

I whisper to the moon,return to me
My Companion,my lover,my heaven
Without him,night is my companion
Loneliness holds me in its embrace
Moon,don't let day come
Leave the world in twilight
Let it be lonely,
Like me