LOFLI went to some stupid Malay 'cukur rambut' at that well-known restaurant whose food taste like my cat's shit.I was angry for the fact that my sister wasn't home,when she said she would,I was angry that I had to wake up early,I was angry that I know no one and seems like everyone treat my Grandma like royalty and suddenly I became invisible,I was angry I had to wear wedges because I had no flats,I was angry because I feel like an alien,I was angry because my Auntie's family seems so big and happy.To be honest,that was the most angriest part of all.Seeing other families sitting in one big table,telling jokes and bantering each other.I sat at the next table,looking in envy,wishing that was my family.I know,get over it Nabilah.Its not my fault that I'm not close to my cousins.Blame my parents,really.
I'll just let it go.I'm not sorry for blogging this because I had to else my mind won't be at peace. My parents are actually planning for a short trip to KL.Maybe visiting a few families or just,stay at the fucking hotel or go to the same fucking places.If only my Dad wasn't that temperamental. I'm still contemplating on whether to go,my own personal reasons and my Mum is bugging me to tag along with them.I have a feeling the trip might be off.I just have that tingling feeling.
Fucking wars and bloodsheds.When will they ever stop?I feel so political talking about this but seeing innocent kids dieing because of their religion is not something you look forward.Imagine dying for something you preach?Dude,what is happening to the world?
I hate writing long posts because it makes me bored.I can't get to bed and I'm still wondering if my Mum would give me money tomorrow.Ten bucks is a HUGE amount.Yeah,try asking my parents.
Finally,farewell 08'.I know I screw up big time this year but I really hope 09 will be better for me and others out there. I need to make a list of resolutions.Like I make an effort doing it.
Haha.
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